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have you ever had to restart a song because you spaced out and weren’t appreciating it enough
i wanna date someone and live with them in a shitty apartment but be happy about it because we are happy together and we can decorate it with stupid dorky posters of shit we like and figurines and art and we can cook weird recipes we found on the internet and eat them and watch cartoons even if the food is gross because we made it and we’re perfect
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Shout out to all the people who are going through hell but still get up every day and act as if nothing is wrong. I’ve been there and just want to say it gets better. Keep your head up.
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It’s nearly the end of summer omg I’m not ready for this no no no no no
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my response to everything is either no or i don’t know.
recently, as in the past few days, my brother died. He was addicted to numerous drugs, including heroin and pain killers. He battled with bipolar disorder and depression.
His addiction had been going on for atleast 7+ years, but had gotten worse in the past few. He was in and out of jail and rehab and frequently returned home to my mother. Now, i dont talk to my mom very much because. . Well she’s a bad mother. She tried her best, but she cared more for my brother than for me. So i moved in with my dad a few years ago, and slowly cut ties with my mom and brother.
Now that my brother has passed, i kind of just feel numb to the whole situation. I feel sad, but mostly for my dad and mom. I will miss him, but at the same time, i prepared myself for this event months ago. I knew this day would come, but i hoped it wouldnt.
No one understands my family dynamics, and im not asking anyone to.
I literally just want people to know why im not that sad, and i want people to know that i really dont need them saying they’re sorry for me. Especially people i havent spoken to in years. I do not need your pity, please spare it for my mother. She had to live with him.
All of his stuff is at her house. If anything, feel sorry for her.
Idk im just rambling now, and no one will ever see this so it doesn’t even matter. But i feel better saying this to a blank page, than saying it to a distraught father.+ 0 notes ♡